why does your life suck?

1954830632
Well,I have a great girlfriend and a good batch of friends ,but I basically hate myself.I'm getting very close to the point in my life where I must go out into the world but I haven't the slightest of what I want to do.I work as hard as I can in school,but I feel like for what? Really the only solace I get is from music, but even now that is killing me to.I work so hard in band,but I just end up feeling stupid and unaccomplished. People tell me that I do fine in a about everything I do but I don't see how seeing I mortally suck 80 percent of the time.I feel like I'm always gonna be just average no matter how above average I aspire to be.It's not really like my mum and dad care.We don't really talk much anymorenot after me and my dad got into fights a few years ago.It's the same everyday I go home and lock myself in my room and from them and all the yelling and fighting.I've tried to convince myslef to hate them,that maybe that would make everything better cause I wouldn't care about waht they say,but it hasn't. I try to keep these things in from my girlfriend,I've told her enough already and I don't want any of it to jepordize our relationship.I hate doing that to her,she defiantely doesn't deserve that.She has helped me a lot though,but now thr rest is up to me. Up to me,well I don't know about that.I will admit very quickly that everybody else on here has worse problems than me.But if I could just myself,if only that little gear would click inside me,then I would save myself.But it hasn't,I've been waiting for it to click for four years.I only hope that God is putting me through a rough path to show me another road I haven't seen before,I'll keep praying but I can't help but feel despair A good lot of the time

1855003475
my dad died in august, my mom was diagnost with cancer in october, my dad's dog died on Thanksgiving, my dog died during finals week and my horse died on Christmas Eve.

114772002
I've been married about six months. I love my wife. I would do anything for her. She's been depressed since the day we got married. She weeped on our wedding night, cried on our honeymoon, and breaks down and cries several times a week. She always says how it would be better if she weren't here. She jokes about slitting her wrists. And I love her. And I want so badly for her to come out of this because she's a beautiful person. When she's alive she shines. But I'm helpless. I don't know what to do...how to help her. I want God to be real to her...to show her that He is real...and that He loves her more than I ever could. But nobody really knows when God will speak, right? So I wait and hope she doesn't kill herself.

1402613033
i'm failing my classes. i can't seem to do anything right. my boss yelled at me today. i'm fat. i have no friends. i live in my parent's house. no guy will ever find me attractive.

2069348707
i feel tired all the time and can never seem to get the "well rested" feeling after my 20s..

2118198586
I have a degree, no job, no home, no girlfriend, and no one else.

405521957
I went to college and have a degree and had a series of crappy jobs. I now live with my parents because I am out of work and cannot afford to live on my own. I don't know what to do with my life. My only friends are morbidly obese (I'm skinny) and I feel ashamed to be seen with them in public. Since, I don't have a job I never go out, so I can't make new friends. I just at home and watch TV and hope the pain ends someday.

362747475
im gay

573285249
i have no hobbies. i'm not good at anything. my social life is boring and lonely. i have tried getting a job but i end up quitting immediately because i get too stressed out. i'm afraid of living with my parents until i'm an old man. i get angry/depressed very easily. I'm a senior in high school and I have no idea what I want to do when I graduate. every time i try to succeed at anything it always backfires, so i give up. my friends are the only reason i have not already killed myself.

1703686234
I'm 32 years old and I still live in my mom's basement. I would be happy to move out but can't afford to. The family dog isn't potty trained and the house smells like dog shit. The carpet will have to be replaced for sure. But I can't seem to train the dog to go outside. Guests can't come to the house anymore. Two years worth of dog urine is hard to cover up with incense and lysol. Since I don't have my own place I have nowhere to go to get away. There is no escape. I have a degree but can't find a job that makes a living wage. The only thing that I got from college is a $70,000 school loan debt that I will be paying off 'til I'm 60. My motivation for completing school came from the belief that I would secure a real job upon receiving my degree. I am starting to lose faith that I will find that job. The job that I have right now works me 70+ hours per week. It is sucking my life away. I am getting older and I don't want to waste anymore time. Unfortunately, since I'm salaried I don't even get paid overtime. Even if it were not for the long hours and low pay I would still hate my job. There is alot of stress and unpredictability. I have to be on-call 24/7. My work can call me at 4:00am and I have to go into work. I dread having to go back to work each moring. Every day is becomming a drudge. I don't have any social skills. Therefore I don't have any friends and I don't date. Even if I mustered up the courage to ask women out I don't have time. Oh, did I mention that I live in my mom's basement? I used to have hobbies. But my typical day now consists of working 14 or 15 hours then going home and forcing myself to go to sleep so that I can force myself to get up in the morning and go back to work.

1501751345
I hate my life. My family is becoming poor. I live with my grandparents, aunt, and uncle. My mom is in Egypt and I don't talk to her. My dad keeps losing his jobs and can't help me with money when/if I need it. Nor can my grandma because she is in too much credit card debt because she's stupid. My grandpa has dimensia and can't take care of himself. He's a burden to our family. My aunt and uncle live in our basement. My uncle is a drunk who acts like a hard ass. My aunt is a pot head and their two children weren't properly raised. I have anxiety, depression, and a fear of the future because I think that I will end up being poor like the rest of my family and I have this mind set that "No matter what [in life] we all lose." I don't want to be here any more but don't have the mind to commit suicide.

1549892042
i am currently living with the father of my child who does not want to marry me. I owe a shit load of money for school. I am unemployed, over-weight, and severly depressed. My family is always using me for something and I can't see any reason why i should live anymore.

1237928022
my sister died yesterday, I am 17 and she was 24

1728134926
I am divorced for five years now, my two boys are with me 21 and 16. I have ajob but needed additional income. I tried to cope with my divorce and am just about getting over it and move on. But I did need additional income so I took equity from my house and invested on a business. Know the business is gone and know I have a new problem, I may loose my house. I tried to be strong for my children and did this business to try and help them. Know everything has gone wrong. Will loose my house, and my kids will get hurt. I could have used that money for their college education. How can I bounce back and live happy again.

601502761
Divorced, but happy about it. Relocated, and broke, not sure why I'm here in this God forsaken Hollywood, there's little work, snobby people and no companionship. Found someone i do like and spent last night with her, feeling it was too much too soon and patiently waiting to see if i wore my heart on my sleeve again, the result will ultimately be the same. This sucks.

744231195
Heh, it's a Friday night and here I am in front of a computer screen. I'm listening to Blue October. Why? We'll get to that later. Ever since I was in school, as each year passed, I asked God if maybe a new girl in school would come along, and she would be the one. I remember falling in love with J. She had a boyfriend though, and was way out of my league. Very pretty, rich. Zero chances for me. I remember she would be the only one of my classmates that wouldn't say happy birthday to me. She knew that I liked her. I guess it was her way of saying "Never". I remember we were sitting together once, just me and her, on some sort of school trip, and another girl was taking pictures, she came over to us, and wanted to take a picture of us. J left the scene immediately saying "No". I remember that vividly. Then came college, finally a chance to forget J. I did. But only to be replaced by someone else. I would be attracted to a few of the girls in college. However, I would have had to go out of my way to meet them, and then everything just gets awkward, at first at least, but they say the first impression is the one that counts. So for a loser like me, I can't make a good impression. I'm very nervous. My heart beats so fast when I'm with a girld that I like. I'm usually very funny, and make jokes and stuff, but I completely freeze with women. So anyways, the years in college passed, hoping that one of the girls that I liked would be in a class that I took. Heh, sure, since pretty girls take a lot of math and computer science courses, right? Anyways, senior year came, I went out of my way to meet another girl that I fell in love with. Her name was S. The day I fell in love with her, I wrote one of the sweetest musical themes(I compose instrumental music btw). She was the first girl I went on a date with. I tried to pursue a relationship with her, but she rejected me. Her favorite band was Blue October. Her rejection made me uninspired to write music for a year. I get so nervous when I see a girl I like. There's this eye doctor who is very cute. She looks like Natalie Portman/Kiera Knightley. The other day I had an appointment. I wanted to know her name, which is N. But the appointment is so short, and she never really talks, and neither do I. I had an appointment after that, and I was going to ask her out for a coffee. I felt my heart was going to shred itself inside-out. I didn't dare. Actually when she asked me questions, I answered so nervously like a dumbass. Oh God. It sucks so bad. The pain. I looked at my zodiac profile the other day. I'm a Virgo, and it said my "life's desire" was to love and be loved back. I guess it's dead-on. But I don't think I'll find her. She isn't real. She doesn't exist. God, why did you create me? I sometimes feel like my purpose in life is to be rejected, and it sucks.

522200940
I'm always sad. I just want it to end.

279141793
I have social anxiety. I crave attention but panic when it is received. On top of that, I went in to get my hair cut almost 2 weeks ago after 2 years of suffering through alopecia and the ditz botched my hair so badly it'll take 2 more lonely years to grow out. And I know it's just hair, but it has made my anxiety far worse - I've yet to go out in public since the haircut...It was supposed to mark the end of hiding my head, but it turned out to be a whole new beginning.

1587279995
I just found this site, and my sucky story is identical to the first sucky story I read. Not only is my life sucky, but it sucks in a way that is not unique or special. I think I'm going to go back to bed and cry.

1686451807
my parents have given up all hope on me, and honestly I would quite frankly agree with them. Everything I try to do messes up in one way or another. I sometimes think life would be a rather enjoyable experience, but the pain inside me says likewise. I cannot fulfill my parents dreams, and therefore have given up all hope on my life. I wish I could explain it to you typed up, but it would be easier to tape my entire life and show it to everyone. Some people really have it good, and I'm happy for them. But for me, things will never get better.

1778454444
I am an alcoholic/addict who suffers from sever chronic pain and I have to take very heavy narcotics just to get out of bed in the morning and stand up. I am no longer able to work because of my condition, therefore, I am dirt poor and getting no help from no one. I have lost all of my friends and you know what? I don't really care. Time to go back to sleep

1137553129
I am lonely

644026221
I'm always so depressed for seemingly no reason... People ask me whats wrong with me and the only response I have for them is "I don't know," my friends are getting sick of me always being depressed and distancing themselves from me, I don't like to talk to people about it because it makes me feel like I'm just burdening them with my problems. I'm so busy that I never have time to sleep and I go days without eating, just out of lack of time. I feel like my life is hang on by a thread, I walk down the street completely disconnected from everything around me, I constantly think about death and just praying for death to come. Everyday is the same thing over again. And I know I have a drug problem but I don't even care enough about myself to do anything about it, I hate myself.

344763394
everything I do is just not good enough for people like my father to be happy about. Its not like I do drugs, go to clubs, or do anything stupid. It's just because he hates me..well thats what I've always thought. It's probably because I didn't get into the college he wanted, or that I'm taking forever to finish, or that I was born, or because I don't listen to him, because I'm the middle child, because I'm not Asian enough, or that I'm stubborn,...the list can go on and on. Does it matter what he thinks? Do I need his acceptance? No, not really. I can care less. I just need his credit card. Selfish you say..I think not. With all this negativity, verbal abuse, I think its fair that I (in his small little pea crap he call brain) am wasting his money on what he can use to make himself better. My life sux.

250878691
my life lucks because my sister has cancer. it has been two years, two long years, and she is not getting better, only worse. I am 17, in my senior year and hate my life. Doctors, treatments, and tacking care of her are a daily reminder of just how unfair life is and how much it sucks.

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