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okay we'll be here for a while. i cant get over my childhood because my parents got divorced when i was three i think i missed out, never having seen my parents happy and in love. my mom got custody, but she drank and got high all the time and cared more about herself and who ever her boyfriend was at the time instead of me my brother and my sister. she would get somethin for herself to eat from the store, wouldnt let us have any even though we were starving and the only food in the house had roaches livin in it. i was always teased cuz i was the "smart kid" and cuz i went to mentally gifted classes, and i dressed funny cuz i only had hand-me-downs cuz she would spend my dad's child support on beer and drugs. one of her boyfriends tried to look at me all the time when i was goin to the bathroom or takin a shower. she would ignore us, we would be screaming MOM MOM MOM MOM over and over and she would close her eyes and just ignore us. I finally moved in with my dad so i could actually continue to be in existence (my brother had moved in with him a year before and my sis has a different dad or else my dad wouldve taken her too) cuz she had lost the house n her n my sis went to stay at my grandmoms. every time i would try to go see her she's be over her boyfriend's (i found out recently she was over there smokin crack..literally smokin crack) then she got a new boyfriend n decided to move to 1,000 miles away to florida. she took my sister and she didnt even say goodbye. a little after she moved i started smokin weed, running away from home because i wasnt happy my dad never paid attention or did anything for me i was the only girl i knew at 14 who had to have a job just so she could have clothes and shoes and a little spending money. and he makes good money but liked to spend it on his night out, drinkin n buyin rounds for all his friends like he's a made man (till he got sober a year ago). i was stealin cars at 14 n me n my best friends got caught, we ended up on house arrest n then cuttin it off cuz some jerkoff dudes we wouldnt give the time of day told our community service leader at the courthouse that we were dumpin out expensive cleanin solution when we werent they were n our parents were snappin on us for nothin so we both got put in juvy facilities. they split us up the first couple hours we were in the detention center. i found out i was diabetic in the detention center. spent my birthday there.i got sent to some rehab cuz the courts thought i wasnt a bad kid i just had a drug problem cuz i smoked weed. i got in trouble there so i ran. got back to my home town, and my dad caught me 10 days later he put me over his shoulder n carried me home i got sent back to the detention center, sent back to the rehab. did good, got out, started smokin again. got locked up again for breakin probation although i had went to my probation officer n told her i wanted to go to an outpatient, that i had relapsed, she said she didnt want me put away, but at court the judge didnt care cuz he knew me n knew all my friends n decided to send me all the way across state for 10 months, spent my 16th birthday there. dad told me when i got out he'd have a big celebration for me for missing my sweet 16. got out, didnt get a celebration, had to spend almost 6 months on probation even though my new probation officer said she wanted to let me off after my 3 month check-up courtdate. but nooo the judge said he wanted to see how i did over the summer. then when i was finally sposta get off probation he wouldnt even take my case that day another judge had to tell me i was finally done. i was workin again but i got kicked out of school cuz i didnt go for a couple weeks cuz i was sick with my diabetes i was only 17 legally they werent allowed to do that.I got fired cuz i called out cuz my grammom got rushed to the hospital. had to break up with my boyfriend because my ex-boyfriend who had hurt me for like 3 year decided he wanted to start a frickin war n if i didnt break up with him all hell wouldve broke loose. i got a new job, tried to avoid the ex-disaster, got together with one of my greatest friends, he ended up cheatin on me with my best friend and other girls too, we broke up n were still friends n they he shot someone brought the gun to my house n only told me he had shot at someone's house to scare them, asked me to hold i told him i would, he came to get it the next day. he got looked up soon after that n then i found out what had really happened. had meaningless relationships with a couple people. then my job started forgetin me over so i walked out n moved to florida the next day. had to come back to take care of my grammom that lives with me cuz my dad had to go to rehab so i had to drop out of school there. came home, had some more meaningless relationships. all the while making my ex-disaster hurt for 3 years like he did me. it finally ended with him screaming through my basement window at 4 in the morning and my brother almost gettin short cuz he told him n his friend to leave.found a nice boyfriend. didnt have a job for a while. got my ged, boyfriend wouldnt do anything with himself.just got a job and now me and him are breakin up, it's my longest straight relationship ever ( me n disaster were on and off all the time). it almost 9 months and its funny because i should be devastated and really i'm kind of relieved. my life just forgetin sucks hopefully it's gonna be better with a job and without the whiny, lazy, loser-face.

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